From Dead Memories...

A woman contacted me the other day who I used to date back in my college days (and that was a LONG time ago). For reasons not worth going into I had been dodging opportunities of meeting with her but I finally decided to do it. It was a very intense experience. When she stepped out of her car and walked up to my door I suddenly was a lot younger - and the same feelings I had forgotten for so long came slamming back.

She still looked as beautiful as ever. (I did not). It was a bit strained at first but we sat and had some coffee and kind of caught up to ourselves. I hadn't seen her in about - well let's say more than thirty years. At this point in time she is the only link I have to a forgotten past - it felt almost like I was looking at a black and white photo of myself. All those dreams that I had buried for so long came back to life....briefly. Unfortunately a few other things came back as well - including the uncomfortable truth that it was I who dissolved the relationship and not her. There was a reason for that I suppose but I can't remember it. It's strange that the feelings should still be there.

But then we were finished with the coffee and we drove back to our separate worlds. Both of us I think were full of "what might have been" thoughts - and both of us hadn't even come close to realizing our dreams. Neither of us went where we wanted to go - and now we will never get there.

Perhaps it is best that I have withdrawn from society and keep to myself. It's safer for me anyway.